Yesterday was the last day of my second session

Yeah it is was another end of an era. I was a bit glad to see it go though. I feel like I lose some of my excitement the last few weeks. I stop losing weight, I don't work out as much, I sneak in candy more regularly. Yeah, I know that is So STUPID. Especially since we i am good and doing what I know I need to the weight just kind of falls off. I feel so much better and I think I rely on God more. Anyway, now I am on my own (but not really) for 17 days. 17 days and I then i will be respondsible for leading a group of at least 2 people. The the pressure will be on. then I won't have to be good just for my own selfish reasons then it will also be to set a good example. I'm pretty nervous, but I know it is what God wants. God made it very clear through one of our Bible studies. Now I just need his strength. One other thing at last weight in I was at 198lbs. Which is great. I reached my goal and amazingly enough I am a size 16 in pretty much everything which feels so wonderful. I am still dreaming big though. In 17 day it would be healthy to loss up to 5 lbs, so that is my goal. To be down to 193 by the start of class. What would be even cooler, but not as as healthy would be down to 190, but I'm not gonna push it. I just need to get on the stick and think about the people that I am being a light for God to. The longert I stay in First Place the more I'm convinced God doesn't want people to feel the way I do about my body and to be overweight (techinically I am still obese, according to BMI tests...YUCK!!!) God sent Jesus so we could have life and have it abundently. Being overweight and not able to sit comfortably, or go on rides at theme parks, or fit cute clothes in not living the abundent life God wants us to have. Nor is that fact that a year ago when I looked in the mirror (and sometimes even now,) I hate what I see. It is not beautiful or healthy. I look fat and lazy, and I know that is not a physical image that Jesus ever portrayed. So, with those final thoughts I leave you. Feel free to check back, but I warn you I may not post again until April 19th...Pray for the new class. I really want people to take it seriously and my prayer is that God will meet everyone where they are at and they will begin their journy to health and life abundent!!!