Okay, I made it through my first 12 weeks of first place for Health and all thanks and glory be to God. I now weigh a much better 214! Yeah, God was gracious and allowed me to to lose 27 of the 91 pounds I hope to lose by my Birthday. I am beyond grateful! My hope is to stay diligent as I am kind of on my own now until January. As long as I don't gain weight I will be happy, but I would love to return to class and see at least 5 more pounds gone. Wouldn't that be cool!?!?
Anyway, I am truely grateful and I do believe that any weight I lose God totally had a hand in. I believe that he is bringing me to a wonderful new place both with him and physically. Honestly my only regret in all of this is that I did not stay healthier for David. At one of our classes the leader shared something that she had read about a couple. The wife had an affair and she and her husband were then in councilling trying to keep their marriage together and at one session the wife said she gained weight so that she would not get extra attention which would cause her not to be attractive enough to be the object of another man's affection. The husbands reply..."by doing that you denied me the wife that God intended for me to have." That hit me hard. I wanted so badly to be able to pride myself on what a great wife I was for David, but I couldn't even take the time to stay healthy and put time into myself. He loved me anyway, I certainly don't doubt that, but I could have showed him how much more I loved him by being the wife that David so deserved.
"I truely am sorry David, but please never doubt that I loved you and will continue to love you always!"
